If ever.

If you find your job more worthy of your time, or our relationship in the way of your road to getting what you want, tell me. I’d be broken and ground to the core, but if it means happiness for you, then I’d gladly obey.

If you find me unworthy of your presence, tell me; tell it to me harshly, so that I’ll know. It will crush me, but at least I’ll know your thoughts, what you want, what you think you need; if it is for your happiness, I’ll gladly leave.

If the roads we took didn’t lead to a crossroad, then I hope you remember that I want nothing but your happiness, nothing but your satisfaction, nothing but your well-being.

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Oh, puberty.

I remember how I was bullied back then for looking like this:

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Treated as if looking like this was a crime. I honestly do not know why people resort to bullying just to make themselves feel comfortable. Putting another person down isn’t cool, dude.

Thank God for puberty. Although I’m not a hundred percent proud about how I look, but I can say that at least, I turned into something who’s visually acceptable

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Delayed Graduation

Seeing their graduation pictures here and there, and I know that I’m in a better place, but I guess it still hurts thinking that I won’t be able to wear that black toga next year. Stings looking at my batchmates, but oh well.

Resilience. Elimination of Trepidation.

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Nakakalungkot na hindi ko mai-tatalumpati ito sa harap ng mga tao. NAG-EFFORT PA NAMAN AKO. Oh Well.

Ako’y may liham na nais kong iparinig sa iyo.

‌ Sana naman, isipin mo ako kapag gagawa ka ng desisyon. ‘Di ba magkasama tayo rito? ‘Di ba kasama mo rin ako sa bawat hakbang? Oo, mas matalino ka, mas magaling ka, pero hindi ibig sabihin nun ay kakalimutan mo na ako. Kaakibat mo ako sa bagay bagay; kasi lahat ng gagawain mo ay parehas tayo na maaapektuhan ng kung ano man ang kakalabasan nun. Dapat hindi lang sarili mo ang iniisip mo; dapat parehas tayo, dapat patas. ‘Diba iisa lang tayo? DIBA?! Iisang galaw, iisang isip. Ang mga hangarin mo at harangin ko, sana sila ay iisa lamang. Sana totoo ang sinasabi mo na mahal mo ako, na nabubuhay ka para sa akin, na pagsisilbihan mo ako, na ako ang nasa isipan mo at puso. Huwag mo sana akong lokohin; na sarili mo lang pala ang nasa looban mo. Huwag mo sanang sayangin ang aking tiwala, ang aking suporta, at ang aking pagmamahal para sa iyo. Natatakot ako na baka pagdating ng araw, mapunta ito sa wala. Umaasa ako, matinding pag-asa na may patutunguhan ito. Kaya sana, kandidato, ika’y maging totoo. Pagpalain ka nawa.
Nagmamahal,

Phil Ip P. Ines

Theme: election 2016

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The Defense.The Dream.The Future Psychologist.

“So how credible is your paper, then, if it’s…”

My head started to search for answers, but not a single thing came into my mind.

Statistics! Screamed the odd little voice inside my head, but alas, not a single questions about statistics was asked.

Aww shiz, I did nothing. I did a 30-second presentation of the results and did nothing with the question and answer

So I realized some things today:

*Better to go solo than to be a ‘pabigat’ to your groupmates. I honestly did nothing significant to contribute to their works. I feel like I’m a burden. I really think that I am. I’d rather carry my own weight than to see others working hard while I’m unable to help. I don’t want to be a burden; I don’t EVER want to be a burden.

*The little things matter–may it be the positioning of your questions, or how you will know each teeny tiny detail about your respondent will matter.

*Maybe my dream ‘thesis topic’ could render me helpless, but you know what they say: “the things that are worth it won’t be easy to get.”

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Isang pagnanais

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Natatandaan mo pa ba ang mga unang larawang ating kinuhanan? Nang ika’y tumigil sa tabi ng estatwa, at inilabas ang iyong iPhone, at kinunan ang pagbaba ng araw sa ating harapan? Sinabi mo pa noon na ika’y mahilig sa potograpiya, at na ika’y sumasali sa mga paligsahan.

Natatandaan mo pa ba ang una kong pagharana sa iyo? Ang una kong pagpapakilig, ang una mong pagpapangiti? Ang mga labi mong nakakabighani?

Natatandaan mo pa ba ang mga pangarap na ating pinag-usapan?

Sana, sa pagdating ng ating pagtanda, matandaan mo pa rin at ating gugunitahin, ating aalalahanin, at ating pagtatawanan ang ating nakaraan. Kasama kitang tatanda, kasama kitang hihimlay, kasama kitang mabubuhay.

Irog ko, iniirog ko

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